9 months can be a short or long time depending on how your year is shaping up. 9 months when you’re busy in whatever aspect of your life you’re engaged In can feel like 9 days, on the other hand 9 months can absolutely drag in when you’re grinding through tasks or working a job you hate. But for me, these 9 months have been the most memorable In all my life. You walked into it without knowing the seismic impact you’d have on me, and to be honest as much as I write or say it will always feel like there’s more to tell because you’ve added so much variety and flavour to my life now that no words – written or spoken will ever be enough to describe the magnificence of you.
I never thought I’d be feeling this way about another human in my life. You’ve kicked open a door in my heart and mind that was In a back corner somewhere with dust and mould build up, that from the beginning of my life had never been opened or even acknowledged. However, that door in the corner of my heart and mind opened to one of the most beautiful colourful rooms a human could ever imagine, with so many beautiful sights and sounds the Garden of Eden would pale in comparison to that door you opened for me which revealed a beautiful garden that we will nourish and look after together and keep adding to it in our own unique way that only we could.
Although we can’t be together today just know that in every second of every day you are in my heart and I’m always with you because I can draw from my mind a memory of a time when we were together and truly happy (which is every time.) Luckily for us, although it’s rough that we cannot spend the cherished time we would like together on this memorable day, we will look back at these times and laugh about how grey things feel without being in each other’s presence because we’ll be with each other all the time.
And as with everything in life ,9 months will turn to 18 and then 18 years will pass and so on, so on, but there will always be a before and after. The before being the time before you blessed me with your presence and the after being the most joyous, grand adventure of our shared lives. I am always baffled by the different ways you unlock the joy in my heart every time we’re together. I’m surprised that I’m able to feel unique different versions of joy every time we meet up. You’ve unlocked a part of my heart that will be yours forever and that I would graciously give over to you. I am indebted to you in ways you couldn’t imagine because you’ve given me a legitimate reason to live, and that reason is to make up to you the rejuvenation you’ve awakened in me, and to make sure that you’ll always feel more loved that anyone on this planet because you deserve the world.
So, knowing you and knowing how much you love when I make you cringe. Ill keep this short and sweet. These 9 months have been the greatest adventure of my life. Every opportunity I have to learn more about you and your life each day is the greatest privilege that has ever been afforded to me and just know that learning about you is like reading the most engaging, fantastic book in the world, I never want to put the book down and every time I turn the page another amazing thing about the beautiful interesting soul you are reveals itself to me.
You’re my everything. Just know this is only the beginning, these 9 months have flown by but at the same time I’ve cherished every second I get to spend with you, so this is my ode to you, the one I’ve been waiting for.
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